Thursday, May 16, 2013

Almost Two Years…

I feel like I have been absent from my blog for way too long.  My life has gotten even more crazy than before, but I love every minute of it:)  As we are approaching Faith’s second birthday on Sunday, I feel compelled to share what God is doing in our lives at this time.

We are loving being involved with our youth at church.  God is teaching us so much through these teenagers, and they are such a blessing to us.  I love that they all love my children, and it does my heart good to see them post pictures of my babies on their instagrams and facebook pages.  God is using them to keep us accountable as teachers, parents and most of all, His children.  He is growing us in ministry, and we are so excited to see where He will lead in that area.

My book is coming along slowly.  Trying to find uninterrupted time to write is a challenge, but the conviction to finish is getting stronger by the day.  I know that God has called me to far more than sitting behind this computer on a daily basis.  He has given us such a testimony and it needs to be shared with all who will hear.  But I have to be a good steward of the task He has set before me so He can show us what to do next.

I’m finding that He is granting me with more and more opportunities to share our Faith and our faith with others.  I had mentioned that Rob and I had gone to DreamNow weekend a few weeks back, and we were challenged to find God’s dream for our life.  One of the exercises we did was to write down our passions and our talents.  It was said that where your talents and passions collide is where you can often find God’s dream for you.  After much prayer, I realized that my passion is truly sharing with people all that God has done in our lives.  It is what brings me joy.  When asked what I would do for free, the answer was simply “Share and Sing.”  That’s what I need to be doing with my life.  I am just praying about the “HOW”. 

Two years seems like just yesterday in so many ways.  I can remember every last detail from the day Faith was born.  But it also seems like an eternity since I held her in my arms.  I am sometimes ashamed that I have held out for so long on being obedient about God’s calling in my life.  I have had two years to finish this book, yet I have found every excuse in the book not to do it.  It’s hard; I’m a perfectionist; I want her story to be so perfect for her.  As her mom, I couldn’t do anything for her here on this earth…except share her story.  The devil is playing on that guilt in a big way.

I told Bryan and Christina that whatever God’s plans were, they must be something good because the devil is all over it trying to be a discouragement.  As I was praying about this, the Lord laid these verses on my heart:

Hebrews 12: 1-3 

Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us, 2 fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith. For the joy set before him he endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. 3 Consider him who endured such opposition from sinners, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart.

I am fixing my eyes on Jesus, the perfecter of faith.  I am running with perseverence the race He has set before me.  I am so thankful that He has already marked it out for me.  I am excited about the things God has for our future!

1 comment:

Melissa Dicks said...

You mentioned feeling bad about waiting do long to do God's will in your life. Don't! You are doing it now in full force. I personally think, that maybe He allowed you to have some time to grieve a little . Although you will never stop completely grieving. You needed that before you could begin on this new project.