Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
We got the call last night from Dr. D with the news of the final report of the MRI. He had finally met with Dr. K, and called with their thoughts. All three doctors are in agreement we should deliver at Shands. However, his words were, “Let’s be honest, we all know this is going to be a difficult repair because there is so much going on.” Deep down, I have known this all along, but there are days when you just want to forget about the bad and the ugly, and focus on the good. He did say that while we have many things to be pessimistic about, there are some things to be optimistic about. So it’s still a waiting game.
The plan for now, is to not really have any plans until Faith arrives. They all know that ultrasounds and MRI’s can’t see everything they need to see. And I DO believe, they are battling with the fact a lot has happened in the last couple of months that is medically unexplainable, thanks to the Great Physician! We will meet with Dr. K to hear his opinion, but it seems as like no plans will be made until they can see her up close and in person to make a decision.
Needless to say, last night was not a good night. I know we have so many things to be grateful for, and believe me, we don’t take any of those for granted. The last thing you want to accept is that we will not know anything until she gets here.
I do know that God is still in control, and He knows the plans He has for all of us, including Faith. And He promises us that they are plans to give us hope and a future. Now we know that our hope cannot come from a doctor, an MRI or a surgical plan, but it must come from God. God’s plans may be for Faith to simply be born into His arms, and if that is the case, we will be given Hope and a Future in the Kingdom of Heaven.
We are not going to lose our trust in Jesus today. Just because things don’t go our way, doesn’t mean he has let us down. This is not the end, only a stepping stone to grow our faith and our Faith in Him. Sure, I feel like I’ve been beaten down, but I know He will pick me up, carry me through this fire, and see me through to the other side.
Please pray (as I know you are and thank you from the bottom of our hearts) for our family today. We are tired, emotionally spent, and are feeling weak. I feel like I am being overcome by the burden of our situation, and I am sucking right now as a mom, a wife and just everything else I am supposed to be. Satan is on me like white on rice today, and I am trusting in Jesus to take him out!