Thursday, March 17, 2011

The Final Report & Plans

Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

We got the call last night from Dr. D with the news of the final report of the MRI. He had finally met with Dr. K, and called with their thoughts. All three doctors are in agreement we should deliver at Shands. However, his words were, “Let’s be honest, we all know this is going to be a difficult repair because there is so much going on.” Deep down, I have known this all along, but there are days when you just want to forget about the bad and the ugly, and focus on the good. He did say that while we have many things to be pessimistic about, there are some things to be optimistic about. So it’s still a waiting game.

The plan for now, is to not really have any plans until Faith arrives. They all know that ultrasounds and MRI’s can’t see everything they need to see. And I DO believe, they are battling with the fact a lot has happened in the last couple of months that is medically unexplainable, thanks to the Great Physician! We will meet with Dr. K to hear his opinion, but it seems as like no plans will be made until they can see her up close and in person to make a decision.

Needless to say, last night was not a good night. I know we have so many things to be grateful for, and believe me, we don’t take any of those for granted. The last thing you want to accept is that we will not know anything until she gets here.

I do know that God is still in control, and He knows the plans He has for all of us, including Faith. And He promises us that they are plans to give us hope and a future. Now we know that our hope cannot come from a doctor, an MRI or a surgical plan, but it must come from God. God’s plans may be for Faith to simply be born into His arms, and if that is the case, we will be given Hope and a Future in the Kingdom of Heaven.

We are not going to lose our trust in Jesus today. Just because things don’t go our way, doesn’t mean he has let us down. This is not the end, only a stepping stone to grow our faith and our Faith in Him. Sure, I feel like I’ve been beaten down, but I know He will pick me up, carry me through this fire, and see me through to the other side.

Please pray (as I know you are and thank you from the bottom of our hearts) for our family today. We are tired, emotionally spent, and are feeling weak. I feel like I am being overcome by the burden of our situation, and I am sucking right now as a mom, a wife and just everything else I am supposed to be. Satan is on me like white on rice today, and I am trusting in Jesus to take him out!


Lisa Lundy said...

Hanging in with you in prayer today! You are a great wife and mom and God is not finished with sweet Faith's story yet. Hope this verse encourages you :)

Psalm 27:13-14
I would have despaired unless I had believed that I would see the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living.
Wait for the LORD; Be strong and let your heart take courage; Yes, wait for the LORD.

Jeannette said...

Thank you for your note yesterday and sharing this today. We love you and your testimony to those around you has already been inexplicable but for your faith in the Great Physician. We love you very much...Jeannette/Holt

Pamela said...

Praying for you sweet SaraBeth! You do not suck as a wife and a mom!!! Don't listen to those words if they come into your head, you know exactly where that comes from - NOT from God. You are an amazing woman and are teaching me so much as I watch you and Rob go through this trial. You are being refined my friend, and are going to come out of this more strong and beautiful than you already are. Love you.

Missy Dougherty said...

I didn't know about all this until a couple weeks ago. I am so sorry you guys are having to go through this. Believe me, I definately know! I'm going to email you and would love to talk to you. I believe the "Dr. K." you are referring to is the awesome surgeon that we have for Grant. He ist the best in the nation. go to my facebook(have Melinda get my pics up for u, as I know you're not on there anymore) and look at the albumn that says "Grant's struggle"...there is a great pic of Dr. K holding Grant the day we finally took him home from the NICU at 5 months old. He's a christian too! ;) Jonathan and I will be here if you & Rob ever need a support group. Grant has a paralyzed right diaphram....his right lung was crushed by hia liver, & pushed his heart into his left lung when he kept dieing on us so many times....Dr. K was the miracle that God worked through to heal him w/his diaphramatic plication TWICE! We've been there amongst all the other complications he had/has had too. I am praying for you....remember though, we're's OK to be down. I had a hard time w/that one. I thought I always needed to be the upbeat/happy mama that I always am, & that/is not always the case. Hugs to you all...

Sarah Beck said...

I LOVE what Missy said--exactly what you and I talked about today! Love you much and I am SO encouraged each time I talk to you. I come away from our conversations lifted up and feeling guilty that you were the one lifting me up and not the other way around. I know you don't realize the magnitude of impact you have on those around you, but it is HUGE!!! Our God is so much bigger than your pain, Faith's health condition, and all of the questions that the medical team might have and I know that he has you and your sweet family in the palm of His hand.

Connie said...

You are an amazing mom, wife,sister, daughter and young lady and should NEVER doubt that..You are a women to be admired. If half the world were the women you are this world would be a better place..I know this has been a horrible journey with moments way up and then way down. You are so remarkable in the way you have handled this all . That is why God has chosen you and your family with Faith..Please know we are all praying and sending love to you all...Connie