We are now into the last 48 hours of my pregnancy. There are days that it seems like I have been pregnant forever, yet on the other hand, it’s hard to believe that in less than two days we are going to look into those sweet (probably blue if I had to bet) eyes for the first time. I am filled with so many emotions, yet I have a peace knowing that God has already orchestrated all of the details of Thursday.
I would like to thank everyone for the wonderful, encouraging comments, emails, cards and phone calls. If I haven’t responded yet, I promise I will. I just want you to know that it hasn’t gone unnoticed, and how much we appreciate the outpouring of love and support you have given our family. Thank you for walking this road with us and for uplifting us in prayer.
If you are newer to my blog, I would like to welcome you and thank you for coming along this journey with us. I hope that our family and the life of our daughter will be a light that shines the love of our Heavenly Father, as He has so graciously given us this opportunity to see Him at work.
There are many things I want to remember, so this will probably be a hodge podge of a post, but I want to make sure I don’t forget these details.
- Two weeks ago, Friday, Cade didn’t get his medicine. It was one of those mornings, and I felt so bad, because I didn’t want to set him up to have a bad day. But I just prayed for him, and his teachers. When I got to school, his teacher wanted to talk to me. I just knew he had a rough day. But she shared with me that he got the undivided attention of his class, and shared with them all about his baby sister. He asked them to pray for her, so they had a prayer time. I was so thankful to her for sharing that with me. When we got in the car, I asked him about it. He told me that he told his class that “Faith will probably die, so we need to pray for her. But I told them we needed to pray for you too, because you were having a rough time.” He then told me, “Mommy, I pray for her everyday.” And he does. I am so amazed to see how God is working in his little life. We do not know the impact this experience will have on him, but I know that God is doing a mighty work.
- My new doctor has been amazing! Dr. D is a blessing from above. I was extremely anxious about switching doctors and hospitals, but God is so faithful to provide what you need when you need it. Dr. D is so compassionate, kind, and very caring. He has made the change most pleasant. I am the biggest baby when it comes to pain, and he has been so accommodating. He has been very supportive of our decisions as a family, and has also been very instrumental in communicating with all of the doctors that will be on board Thursday. I am so thankful for all he has done for us!
- We went to see Soul Surfer Friday night. I had been looking forward to seeing it, and the kids were all too excited to see a shark bite somebody’s arm off. But I have to tell you, God’s timing is impeccable. As the movie started, Bethany is sitting in youth group, and they are talking about perspective. How when you are so close to a situation, it’s hard to see what is really in front of you. Her youth leader (Carrie Underwood) shared a verse with them, while telling them that when they can’t get perspective, or understand a situation, that they can trust God’s plans. The verse she shared was Jeremiah 29:11 – For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Rob just looked at me and said, “WOW!” As we watched this young teenager overcome such a trial in her life, it reminded me that the Lord always has us in the palm of His hand. We just have to let go, and let Him do His thing.
- I always look forward to Sunday mornings, as I love going to our church. But what I have come to love about our Sunday mornings, is feeling Faith jump around inside my belly, as we sing praise and worship songs. It’s such a reminder that we have so much to be thankful for. I think about the freedom we’ve been given, by the sacrifice of Jesus on the cross. That if He hadn’t suffered through that trial, eternity in heaven would not be a possibility. Romans 8:28 -“ And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose.”
As Thursday draws closer, I feel like I am growing more and more weary. Yesterday was tough. It was my last doctor’s appointment. As I was driving to get the kids, I was listening to my Selah cd, and the song “Oh Draw Me Lord” came on. I just cried out to Jesus asking Him to draw us closer to Him during the next few days. I begged for Him to give us the strength and the courage for what lies before us. I asked Him to take the nerves from me, so that we will not lose focus on what He is going to do. And can I tell you, I had an immediate peace just come over me. He just whispered in my ear, “I’m right here. I haven’t gone anywhere.” I know the next days, even weeks will not be easy, but I do know that God will carry us through them. We have NO idea what will happen on Thursday, but He has promised that He does.
Someone (either Christina or Amy) will be updating our blog on Thursday. Please continue to pray for Faith, for our family, our children and the doctors and nurses that will be on board with us. God is going to do a mighty thing on Thursday, and as Cade reminded us, He will show His power. I am excited to see what He has in store. Thank you again for all of your love and prayers.