The days have seemed to swirl by me as my life just wants to stand still. It hurts so bad some days that I want to believe I am further from Faith and further from God with each day that passes. Though our journey was not an easy one, the sweet tender moments that we spent with Faith, brought sweet tender moments that we shared with our Savior. I am scared for that closeness to fade away.
I laid in bed the other night, and just prayed and asked God to please help me to cling to Him. That He would help me to continue to trust Him. Throughout this situation, I have often thought of Job. Others have mentioned him a lot also. So I decided to take the time to read the book of Job. I am also reading a great book called “Holding on to Hope.” This book is the journey the author takes through Job as she is walking her own pathway of grief. I am at the halfway mark with both books, and something stood out to me as if God just screamed at the top of His lungs to make it grab my attention.
Job 1:21 says “And said, Naked came I out of my mother's womb, and naked shall I return thither: the LORD gave, and the LORD hath taken away; blessed be the name of the LORD.” The author of the book then goes on to say that everything we have in this life is a gift from God. We have to be willing to trust everything to Him. And if we leave this earth with nothing, we will still have Jesus. He should be more than enough.
Um….Hello! More than Enough? That happens to be the name of my blog that I share with the world.
So I have decided to repost the ORIGINAL blog post from April 2009 as a reminder of where we started, and how much “More than Enough” my God is for me.
Well, I finally made it to the blog world. I have held off as long as possible, but I just gave in. God has put it on my heart for some time to do this, so I hope it will glorify him. Of course it will be filled with stories and pics of our precious children, but I hope it will be an encouragement to those who read it.
If you know me well, you will know that if I do something, I want it to stand out and be different. Of course my blog was no exception. I have pondered the name for some time, and I finally decided on More than Enough. I wanted something that would stand for how I feel about my life and all I have been given. It is a worship song that I had never heard until I was asked to sing it. The words are so simple, yet the meaning is more than powerful.
I have been in a funk, pretty much all week. Just overwhelmed! Melinda is graduating Friday, she is getting married NEXT WEEK, we are planning for our mission trip to Costa Rica in June, trying to sell 2 dive scooters to raise money for our trip, attempting to stay on a budget in these tight financial times, maintaining our busy social life, and the list goes on and on. My life gets so busy sometimes, that I get too caught up in the things that don't matter. I finally prayed about it and here is the peace that passes all understanding,,,,
The many friendships in my life, that mean so much to me....are More Than Enough to love and support me.
The great (most days) job that I have in this terrible economy.....is More Than Enough to meet our needs.
My most wonderful family that I am so close to....is More Than Enough to count on anytime I need them.
My more than AMAZING husband, whom I love unconditionally, who is a changed man following God's desires for his heart....is way More Than Enough to love me for who I am.
My most PRECIOUS miracles, Cade and SaraGrace, who were never to be mine, but God was more powerful than any doctor or treatment....are More Than Enough for me to love and cherish every second I have with them. They make me a better Momma.
And the GREATEST gift of all, my SALVATION....is More Than Enough to see me through this earthly life, and to escort me to see my Savior when I get to Heaven.
My life is filled with far more blessings than I deserve. For that, I am most grateful.
***And now I have to add…..My daughter, Faith, who was too precious for this earth, is More Than Enough to show me that we can love our children with everything we have in us, but no one can love them like Jesus. She is More Than Enough to teach us to trust in God’s plans, for He promises us hope and a future.
And most importantly, my Savior is More Than Enough to sustain me here on this earth, as we walk a path of grief, suffering and despair. Though one of our most precious gifts is no longer on this earth, THE most precious gift will endure forever…..the gift of God’s love and grace.